Let me start by saying Hi before I get straight to the point.
Yes, I'm talking about Kris, who else?
Honestly, I don't feel any hatred towards him but I won't say his decision to leave EXO at their peak and the nearing of their concert is right. Who am I to judge him anyways right? I just disagree with his actions because as EXO fan, I want to see all 12 members standing on the stage. This is EXO, this is what I'm being introduced with, this is why I like them and this is why I stan them.
But the fact that Kris had decided to sue SM had left me no choice but to accept that he will not be apart of EXO anymore in the future. Well, of course I do hope he will return. Don't we all hope that too? But the probability of him returning is so thin that I would rather accept that EXO are now left with 11 members.
A lot of ELF are probably angered that EXO fans are linking Kris' leaving the group as the same as Hangeng's case. They just don't want to be remembered of the painful past. I'm sorry to say this, but this is exactly the same case. I'm an ELF too. I may be lacking in SJ updates nowadays but that don't make less a fan. Hangeng left SJ. Kris left EXO. The similarity doesn't stop here. They're both the M leaders and they both dissappeared for a while after leaving.
Here comes the part where it hurts the most - affecting the fans and the other members. The fact that Kris leave the group while they're active and in the middle of promotion and nearing their first concert are just plain cruel. Why can't he leave before their comeback or after their tour or anytime while they're not active? It wouldn't hurt less, no but at least the impact would not be as bad as what the other 11 members are experiencing right now. Look at EXO-K, they're barely coping with their promotions. How would the M boys continue now without their leader? What's going to happen to this Overdose promotion? I think M would now need to halt their promotions while K will kept going on.
Now, back to Kris. Don't get me wrong, I'm not saying Kris' health and happiness is not important. There is no right and wrong in this case. It just hurts that he had decided to leave. It hurts even more that the other members are kept in the dark and are as clueless as us fans in this case. This is history repeating itself. Are all the M groups cursed with the leaders leaving?
On who to blame, I could only say it's the management fault. If they do put the welfare of their artists in mind then none of this will happen. If the employee are satisfied in the organization then they wouldn't leave. SM, you sucks so much!! You only think of your artists as money making machines. You overworked your more famous idols and neglect the rest!
But the most dissappointing of all, is only for me to blame myself. Why do I even like Kpop in the first place? Why am I so into SJ and support so many of SM idols. Why do I have to expose myself into liking and becoming addicted to EXO? I try to tell myself that this is none of my business. But in the end, I do care and feel hurt. I may not cry. I'm old enough to hold my tears. I experienced 2009 with Hangeng leaving SJ and me hating him until now. I still think he betrayed SJ. 5 years later, I had to feel the same and maybe worser in Kris leaving EXO.
Can't help but to think now there are only 11 members left in both SJ & EXO. To the EXO boys, stay strong. You'll get through it and time will heal everything. Don't forget to seek advise from your sunbaes, they've gone through that and I'm sure they're more than willing to help. This will even make your bond tighter and stronger.
To EXO, rely on your members and stay strong together.
To Kris, you had done a good job as their Duizhang. Now, I hope you will find your happiness and freedom.
To me that will slowly but surely be leaving this Kpop fandom. It can't be my life anymore. I'm stuck for too long. But I just can't move on, not now at least.
Until I blog again, this is goodbye for now.
